The Unknown March 3, 2008

The only thing I don’t like about pregnancy, besides my hyperemesis issues, is the beginning. The unknown. Yes I’m sick. Yes I’m tired. Yes I have major food and smell aversions. Beyond that though, I have no reassurance that everything is O.K. There is no kicking from within or a big round belly to remind me that yes, things are fine. And that is what I hate about early pregnancy. I suspect that I do some overreacting as many other infertility patients do. I have no reason to believe that things aren’t okay, but at the same time I really don’t feel like I have good reasons to believe that they are okay beyond the sickness and faith. I must have faith. Faith in God. Faith in my body. Faith. OB appointment tomorrow… let’s hope for some reassurance.