Update May 27, 2005

Okay, I finally got off my butt and started. I took a small tiny cat nap. You know the kind, where you can hear the TV in the background and you wake up and don’t think you have slept any until you realize that the TV is on a different show. I’m about 3/4 of the way through the laundry. It shouldn’t take to much longer. I’ve vacuumed the LR, fed Magdalena and myself, and picked up all the stuff. We ran errands and hit the bank and filled the gas tank up in the car. Next on my list is to do the dishes and finish cleaning up the kitchen. Then my mom should be here and her and Magdalena can pack the bag of toys. While they are doing that I can pack the clothes and such. Then I’ll bathe Magdalena and pack up the toiletries. Then once Magdalena is asleep I’ll load the car. And then Erich should be home and we’ll shove off. I still have a lot to do, huh?

I Shouldn’t Be Here

I should be packing, cleaning up my house, and doing massive amounts of laundry. But I’m not. I’m here, piddling around on the computer checking blogs and reading forums. Magdalena is just laying beside me too.
We’ll be leaving tonight at midnight and traveling all night. In between laundry, cleaning, and packing I should take a gigantic nap.

Sadness and other things May 25, 2005

Time just seems to fly. Here is a recap of what we have been doing.

Saturday we left early and went to a festival. We did some shopping and got a few things that we needed/wanted. Erich bought a really nice executive chair and I’m calling that his birthday present. (His birthday is on the 22nd of June.) We ate dinner here and it was delicious! Erich wasn’t a fan but I liked the dish I had. When we went home we did some major reorganizing. We finished the floor in Erichs office/guest room downstairs. We moved the sewing room which was on the main floor to the downstairs into the TV room. The former sewing room on the main floor became the play room. No more toys in the LR. yay. And I spent all week last week getting the nursery on the top floor back in order.

Sunday we had company. Magdalena had fun with her friend. Erich and his friend did who knows what downstairs. And my friend and I pickled cucumbers.

This week I’ve been getting ready for our trip. We leave Friday night and we’ll be back next Friday.

Tomorrow a friend is coming over to help with some sewing. She is going to help me with the labor aspect of my business. It will help a lot and light a fire under my butt to get some stuff going.

On to sadness. I’m bummed on the TTC front. It isn’t happening and it bugs me. I’m cycling correctly but I’m just not getting pregnant. The friend that is helping me is pregnant and it’s so hard to be around her. And all of my online friends who were TTC are now pregnant and it just hurts so incredibly much. If I get another high temp tomorrow, fertility friend will confirm ovulation. This month would yield a Valentine Baby and a 25 month spacing. But I know in my heart that it won’t be. The heartache is just unbearable.

13 Years May 20, 2005

Thirteen years ago, my father died. I can’t believe it’s been thirteen years. I miss him so incredibly much. Sometimes I look at Magdalena and see my father and this overwhelming feeling of sadness and love comes over me. I am a part of him and therefore he is a part of my children. It’s so crazy and great at the same time.

In other news, Magdalena will be 16 months old tomorrow. Wow. We leave for Missouri next weekend. And I’m on CD11. So we’re busy busy people around here!

Beginnings and Endings May 10, 2005

Two years ago today, Magdalena was conceived. What an awesome day huh? To get a postive pregnancy test today, would be having my cake and eating it too. But it wasn’t to be folks. I’m starting to spot and I’m pretty sure AF will be here full swing tomorrow. It isn’t over until the fat lady sings, but I can hear her doing her warmups. Maybe next month…

Happy Mothers Day! May 8, 2005

It’s mothers day also known as CD28 around here. FF changed my chart yesterday and said they really don’t think I ovulated on CD14, they think I ovulated on CD15. So instead of being 14dpo today, I’m only 13dpo. So we didn’t take a test this morning. I decided we’d wait and see if my period comes by Tuesday morning. Also, I can’t handle the disappointment on Mothers Day, yk? I will say that I’m feeling super sick to my stomach but thats probably because I’m writing this without my glasses and I just got up and haven’t ate.

Happy Mothers Day!

A Big Announcement May 7, 2005

I’ve started my own cloth diapering business. The website is currently under construction but it can be found here. We are called Cloth Beginnings and we are super excited. You can view some things that are currently being sold here. If you feel like you want to support us, we welcome it! And if you win an auction with me, let me know you are a reader of my blog and you will get free shipping!

Also, if you are interested in being a tester, I currently need some help so leave me a message!

Little People May 4, 2005

I am exhausted. I was ready for a nap about an hour after we got up this morning. It’s ridiculous. I don’t really think the sleep I got last night was bad though. I can tell you I had a bunch of really random oddball dreams. I can’t remember one of the ones that I was thinking of this morning but it was weird.

Anyway, Magdalena is quite the little imitator these days. Anything you can do, she can do better **sings I can do anything better than you!** heh. Sorry, I broke into song. As I was saying, she loves to mimic and imitate and do things like a big girl. She recently started shampooing her hair. As soon as the water gets her hair wet, she puts those cute chubby hands up there and rubs her head. She loves to brush her teeth, though I always get to brush her teeth first. She loves to help with the laundry. I’ve been just putting the wet clothes on the dryer and letting her push them in. I asked her to throw the fabric softener sheet into the dryer, but she tried to blow her nose with it so I don’t do that anymore. heh. The other day I was taking clothes out of the dryer. I’d get a shirt and then shake it out and fold it or hang it up. So Magdalena started taking clothes out of the dryer and shaking them. It was hilarious! If only I could teach her to fold them, because after she shook them, she threw them on the floor.

She is a major Daddy’s girl. She loves her Daddy. She is asleep when he gets home from work generally, but first thing in the morning after breakfast she goes looking for “Dadeeee.” Erich works in the basement on the desktop computer a lot so she’ll walk over to the basement stairs and holler “Dadeee!” When she sees him her face lights up and she giggles and gets completely thrilled. It’s the best little face ever, and I’m sure it feels good to see that face smiling at you.

She now marches and dances and sings. Well, she’s been dancing and singing for a really long time, but the marching is to cute and funny. It’s so funny to see this tiny little girl running around the house. She is so short! Though, in the last two weeks or so, she’s gained almost an inch in height. At her 15 month appointment she weighed 19lbs 2 oz and was 30 inches tall. She is finally outgrowing 6-9 month clothes, but only in length. She was declared perfectly healthy and way ahead of the developmental timeline which is always nice to hear. She is such a complete joy and we are so very thankful. I’ll post cute pictures tomorrow. Right now, it’s time for bed.

I Am Weak (and apparently I Also Have Horns) May 3, 2005

Okay, I caved. I’m 9dpo, and I took a pregnancy test. I know everybody is holding their breath right? Well exhale because not only was it not positive, it wasn’t negative either. THERE WERE NO FREAKING LINES!!! It was a dud folks. Stupid test.

Anyways, so today I decided that I was going to do the grocery shopping for the month. I sat down, wrote out menus for the month, clipped coupons, and wrote a gigantic grocery list. I sorted the list for things that should come in bulk from Sams club and stuff that should come from my local evil mega supermarket. I also had some random things that needed to be returned.

So I packed up Magdalena and T (as a side note, why do I decide to do this when I have to lug 2 kids around? I have a death wish don’t I?) and we left. I had to pay the utility bill and drop the phone bill in the mail, but we were soon on our way out of town. We hit up the wholesale club and exited pretty quickly. I was proud of myself for getting in and out quickly and with only the things on my list. So then I moved on to evil mart.

I took the bag of stuff to the counter to be returned and the lady starts yapping about crap. Somewhere in her babbling this conversation emerged:

Her: How old is your little one?
Me: 15 months. **thinking could you please hurry the hell up, you are taking to much time.**
Her: The price of kids these days! They are expensive. Formula itself is outrageous.
Me: Well, I never use that stuff.
Her: Oh, right. Because she’s 15 months old. She can drink milk now.
Me: No, no. We never used the stuff, not even when she was a newborn.

This is apparently where I sprouted horns. The look on that her face was amazing. I had taken a picture of her, you would have all thought that she was staring at a gigantic alien. She acted like I had taken my boob out to show her! Man, I can only imagine what she would have done if she had come across me nursing Magdalena, you know a child that walks and such.

So as always, I’ve identified myself as a freak in today’s society. What’s new?

Link May 2, 2005

Here is the link to my chart if you are interested:

http://www2.fertilityfriend.com/home/21506